11 w 1d

i felt the baby really move for the first time yesterday. i was sleeping on my side on the floor and there was a feeling like butterflies fluttering in my side. i haven't felt it since then but its the most weirdest thing.

in utero name

the consensus amongst everyone seems to be 'paullie'

the ultrasound picture link

http://www.flickr.com/photos/naura/2782290195/

10w 5d

a friend on the forums lost her baby. she was at week 10 and her baby stopped growing at 9 weeks. does this make me nervous? hell yes. her due date was a day before mine. i have to remind myself that our baby was healthy at 9 weeks 5 days and it measured what it was supposed to... but reality did kick me in the head. im still not clear till week 13. then the possibility of miscarrying goes down... not 100% down but i can put my mind to a little bit more ease.

this time because there was tangible evidence that the baby was there, we decided to tell everyone and show the ultrasound. it was weird to see this being inside me with its heart beating so hard (183 bpm). i'm glad at least i have a little part of him/her even if something may happen.

week 9

i am still feeling pregnant. i actually had to buy one of those stretchy belly things so i can get back into my jeans. i'm slowly getting my energy back... but that makes me afraid... i don't know if i am reverting back to my 'non-pregnant' self. i worry then i get nausea and i keep more relaxed.

i wish they would have let me go to the doctors for a short ultrasound or even a simple internal Doppler to show me that there is something in there would have been nice, but tricare is a bunch of stingy bastards.