its gone. i am not pregnant anymore. the doctor said that the fetus wasn't viable. since there is nothing wrong with me that i can try again. and we will.

we most likely have lost the baby. we will know for sure tomorrow when i do the next blood test if pregnancy hormones are going down. please don't call us.

i went to the doctor and he told me although my cervix wasn't open, my uterus is too small for me to be 10 weeks pregnant.

since i don't have anything wrong with my body he thinks that there might have been something wrong with the fetus itself.

last night the dog was acting weird, paul's mom called, there was something in the air. some bad vibe. i caught it. :(

i started bleeding today. i am very scared for the little life inside me. the doctor says it sometimes happens. its abnormal but it could happen. so far i haven't seen any kind of tissue with the blood, although i did pass something it looked like a clot. i also haven't been cramping badly either. i went to evans to take blood and urine sample tests. this will tell us exactly what is going on with my body.

10w1d belly pic

here comes week 10!

i haven't gained weight in numbers... but my weight has shifted from my thighs to my middle. i can't fit into my levi's anymore. /pout its kind of crazy what kind of change my body is going through. i'm a quarter of the way done already! its still not going by as fast as i want it to be... :P

one of paul's buddies lost his son at 14 weeks yesterday. his wife just went into labor and they couldn't do anything about it. they had JUST found out the sex of the baby 2 days before. it's a wake up call for me because i HAVEN'T been feeling sick i feel like i've been doing stuff i shouldn't. i.e. cartwheel yesterday at work to impress the kids. or even THINKING that i MIGHT be able to climb pikes peak with paul's unit. i will be at the summit waiting for him instead (which i don't even know if i could because of the lack of oxygen up there).

i found out that one of paul's other buddies wife is also pregnant.... and our due dates are only THREE days different!!! her husband also coaches a T-ball team with paul. i'm really excited to be able to share this experience with someone else here in colorado.